The End: Part Eighteen of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

On Monday February 24, 1997, Pooky, Emma and her baby arrived at our apartment in downtown Mechanicsburg. Though they were worn out from the long drive, they requested a meeting with the rest of the group in Shippensburg at 9:00 PM.  They wanted to share what they had experienced and learned since they left a …

Rose’s Tale: Part Seventeen of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

Editor Note: This is Rose's story. This was compiled from several interviews, and shared with her permission. I attended my first Narrowgate meeting in the fall of 1994. I was a new Freshman at Messiah, and wasn’t adapting to college life the best. Two people had invited me to check out Narrowgate, and so I …

Oliver’s Tale: Part Sixteen of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

Editor Note: This is Oliver's story.  It includes his journal which was written in February of 1997, as well as his personal journey over the past 25 years. This was written in his own words and shared with his permission.  My account of the surreal week in Feb 1997 when the Narrowgate cult disintegrated. It …

Pooky’s Tale: Part Fifteen of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

This is the first of several entries that are co-written by other Narrowgate members. The information was gathered through interviews and from original journals, notes, and letters written by Pooky at the time of Narrowgate. These first-hand accounts are fascinating to read, almost 25 years later. It is always refreshing to get another person’s perspective, …

The Morning After: Part Fourteen of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

The next morning I woke up and wondered if the past 24 hours was all just a bizarre dream. But reality reminded me that I was waking up alone in our King-sized bed. Pooky had fled with Emma and her Baby, and I was alone. Because I was the only one (that I knew of) …

The Storm – Part Thirteen of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

There is a song by the popular Christian music group Casting Crowns, entitled “While You Were Sleeping.” The song takes a different approach to the classic Christmas carol about the Little Town of Bethlehem – while the town of Bethlehem was going about its usual business (which they correlate with “sleeping”), Christ the savior was …

The Calm Before… Part Twelve of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

The last entry was pretty traumatic for a lot of people and perhaps as a result of reading this, they were re-traumatized to spiritual abuse in your own life. One dear friend who was not in Narrowgate reached out to my wife this past week and said that reading our experience re-traumatized her to some …

Armageddon: Part Eleven of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

Author's note: This blog was quite possibly the hardest yet to write. Of all the experiences we've had in the Narrowgate cult, this is most certainly one of the most traumatic experiences of my entire life. It's difficult to dig this up - several people who I have talked about this experience have blocked it …

Narrowgate X: Part Ten of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

You build me up, you break me down until I'm falling to pieces. The price I pay to live this way, and the fantasy stays alive.  (Dream Theater) There were so many teachings during this general time period. Some of them were documented in my journal, though some of them just sort of popped up …