The Calm Before… Part Twelve of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

The last entry was pretty traumatic for a lot of people and perhaps as a result of reading this, they were re-traumatized to spiritual abuse in your own life. One dear friend who was not in Narrowgate reached out to my wife this past week and said that reading our experience re-traumatized her to some …

Armageddon: Part Eleven of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

Author's note: This blog was quite possibly the hardest yet to write. Of all the experiences we've had in the Narrowgate cult, this is most certainly one of the most traumatic experiences of my entire life. It's difficult to dig this up - several people who I have talked about this experience have blocked it …

Narrowgate X: Part Ten of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

You build me up, you break me down until I'm falling to pieces. The price I pay to live this way, and the fantasy stays alive.  (Dream Theater) There were so many teachings during this general time period. Some of them were documented in my journal, though some of them just sort of popped up …

Supplemental documentation for USA Today article on Oakwood Baptist Church

Yesterday, our story was published in a USA Today article titled "The tongue is a fire’: Southern Baptist church fractures over secrets and spiritual abuse" by Tricia Nadolny. Some external information was referenced in the story, which I have documented below. Note that the content of this blog entry may be updated or edited as necessary."Foose …

Descending: Part Nine of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

This is blog post nine in this series, and since I started blogging, I have been asked numerous times "how much more is there?"  I can say that there is no firm number, as I'm mainly transcribing and commenting on the journal I created back in the 90's. Some topics have led me down a …

The Answer: Part Eight of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

This Narrowgate story is a tragedy in Three Acts, and at this point in the story, the curtain is officially rising for Act Two. And I will warn you - if you thought things up to this point were bizarre, I can only quote Randy Bachman of the Bachman - Turner Overdrive: "you ain't seen …

Prosperity: Part Seven of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

Sometimes, when the spirit moves me, I can do many wondrous things. I want to know when the spirit moves you - Did ye get healed? (Van Morrison) At this time, many people in Narrowgate were in significant debt.  As a result, the teaching of financial prosperity gained more prominence.  We were taught that it …

Game Over

Master of puppets, I'm pulling your strings Twisting your mind and smashing your dreams Blinded by me, you can't see a thing Just call my name 'cause I'll hear you scream Master, master!     (Metallica) During summer of 2019, we were on a relaxing vacation in the Poconos.  I remember sitting out on the screened-in …