The Storm – Part Thirteen of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

There is a song by the popular Christian music group Casting Crowns, entitled “While You Were Sleeping.” The song takes a different approach to the classic Christmas carol about the Little Town of Bethlehem – while the town of Bethlehem was going about its usual business (which they correlate with “sleeping”), Christ the savior was …

The Calm Before… Part Twelve of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

The last entry was pretty traumatic for a lot of people and perhaps as a result of reading this, they were re-traumatized to spiritual abuse in your own life. One dear friend who was not in Narrowgate reached out to my wife this past week and said that reading our experience re-traumatized her to some …

Armageddon: Part Eleven of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

Author's note: This blog was quite possibly the hardest yet to write. Of all the experiences we've had in the Narrowgate cult, this is most certainly one of the most traumatic experiences of my entire life. It's difficult to dig this up - several people who I have talked about this experience have blocked it …

Narrowgate X: Part Ten of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

You build me up, you break me down until I'm falling to pieces. The price I pay to live this way, and the fantasy stays alive.  (Dream Theater) There were so many teachings during this general time period. Some of them were documented in my journal, though some of them just sort of popped up …

Supplemental documentation for USA Today article on Oakwood Baptist Church

Yesterday, our story was published in a USA Today article titled "The tongue is a fire’: Southern Baptist church fractures over secrets and spiritual abuse" by Tricia Nadolny. Some external information was referenced in the story, which I have documented below. Note that the content of this blog entry may be updated or edited as necessary."Foose …

Descending: Part Nine of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

This is blog post nine in this series, and since I started blogging, I have been asked numerous times "how much more is there?"  I can say that there is no firm number, as I'm mainly transcribing and commenting on the journal I created back in the 90's. Some topics have led me down a …

The List

by Megan Benninger Dear SBC, Christa’s called for 15 years Through shattered heart and angry tears To have a list With your assist To save the little lambs. Though she persists You still dismiss Her simple clear request. So since you won’t, we’ll take the charge. Don’t trust you anyway. We’ll make the asked-for warning …

The Answer: Part Eight of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

This Narrowgate story is a tragedy in Three Acts, and at this point in the story, the curtain is officially rising for Act Two. And I will warn you - if you thought things up to this point were bizarre, I can only quote Randy Bachman of the Bachman - Turner Overdrive: "you ain't seen …