Armageddon: Part Eleven of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

Armageddon: Part Eleven of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

Author’s note: This blog was quite possibly the hardest yet to write. Of all the experiences we’ve had in the Narrowgate cult, this is most certainly one of the most traumatic experiences of my entire life. It’s difficult to dig this up – several people who I have talked about this experience have blocked it…

Narrowgate X: Part Ten of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

Narrowgate X: Part Ten of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

You build me up, you break me down until I’m falling to pieces. The price I pay to live this way, and the fantasy stays alive.  (Dream Theater) There were so many teachings during this general time period. Some of them were documented in my journal, though some of them just sort of popped up…

Descending: Part Nine of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

Descending: Part Nine of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

This is blog post nine in this series, and since I started blogging, I have been asked numerous times “how much more is there?”  I can say that there is no firm number, as I’m mainly transcribing and commenting on the journal I created back in the 90’s. Some topics have led me down a…

The Answer: Part Eight of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

The Answer: Part Eight of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

This Narrowgate story is a tragedy in Three Acts, and at this point in the story, the curtain is officially rising for Act Two. And I will warn you – if you thought things up to this point were bizarre, I can only quote Randy Bachman of the Bachman – Turner Overdrive: “you ain’t seen…

Prosperity: Part Seven of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

Prosperity: Part Seven of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

Sometimes, when the spirit moves me, I can do many wondrous things. I want to know when the spirit moves you – Did ye get healed? (Van Morrison) At this time, many people in Narrowgate were in significant debt.  As a result, the teaching of financial prosperity gained more prominence.  We were taught that it…

Freedom: Part Six of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

Freedom: Part Six of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

A man is something that’s real. It’s not what you are, it’s what you can feel. It can’t be too late to look through the hate and see – I know that’s what a man can be. (Boston) I’ve been to quite a few Men’s Ministry events in my life, but none has ever been quite like…

White Wedding: Part Five of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

White Wedding: Part Five of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

Come on it’s a nice day for a white wedding. It’s a nice day to start again! (Billy Idol) One of the couples within the group, Ava & James, got married on March 16, 1996. They had become an official couple while in Narrowgate, and asked Liam to officiate the wedding ceremony. James was one of…

Nomads: Part Four of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

Nomads: Part Four of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

And the road becomes my bride. I have stripped of all but pride, so in her I do confide. And she keeps me satisfied, gives me all I need (Metallica) Now that Narrowgate was banned from meeting on campus, we met in various locations as a temporary arrangement as we worked things out.  It was about this…

Special Report: Part Three of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

Special Report: Part Three of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

I think that I’m now somewhat caught up and have filled in as much detail as I can. Thank you for your patience while I got my chronological crap together. Also, thank you for humoring me in sharing some of the back story of how Pooky and I met and became a couple. We truly…

Flashpoint: Part Two of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

Flashpoint: Part Two of My Life Inside the Narrowgate Cult at Messiah College

When you finally regain control of your life’s story from abusers who have held the pen for so long, it can take time to get the courage to write again, to say in effect: “You are no longer the author of my story and I do not need your approval to write the next chapter.”…