PANIC. THEY ARE COMING FOR ME. THEY HATE ME, AND GOD IS ON THEIR SIDE.THEY WILL STOP AT NOTHING TO SILENCE ME. I AM NOT SAFE. NOWHERE IS SAFE. heart pounding, eyes flicking this way and that, and so I shut them. I squeeze them so hard until sparkling flashes of red light burst across…
As I mentioned in an earlier entry, we left Narrowgate – but Narrowgate never actuallyleft us. When Emma and the Baby went back to Enola to stay with Liam, Pooky and I wereonce again alone in our own apartment. That would not last long: Emma and the babycame back after only a week or two….
On Monday February 24, 1997, Pooky, Emma and her baby arrived at our apartment in downtown Mechanicsburg. Though they were worn out from the long drive, they requested a meeting with the rest of the group in Shippensburg at 9:00 PM. They wanted to share what they had experienced and learned since they left a…
Editor Note: I originally posted this on September 2, 2013 as I neared the ripe age of 40. I’ll let you do the math – I’m a little older now, and hopefully a little wiser. But these words still ring true. Seize the day – you may not be given another. “You may delay, but…
Editor Note: This is Rose’s story. This was compiled from several interviews, and shared with her permission. I attended my first Narrowgate meeting in the fall of 1994. I was a new Freshman at Messiah, and wasn’t adapting to college life the best. Two people had invited me to check out Narrowgate, and so I…
Editor Note: This is Oliver’s story. It includes his journal which was written in February of 1997, as well as his personal journey over the past 25 years. This was written in his own words and shared with his permission. My account of the surreal week in Feb 1997 when the Narrowgate cult disintegrated. It…
This is the first of several entries that are co-written by other Narrowgate members. The information was gathered through interviews and from original journals, notes, and letters written by Pooky at the time of Narrowgate. These first-hand accounts are fascinating to read, almost 25 years later. It is always refreshing to get another person’s perspective,…
The next morning I woke up and wondered if the past 24 hours was all just a bizarre dream. But reality reminded me that I was waking up alone in our King-sized bed. Pooky had fled with Emma and her Baby, and I was alone. Because I was the only one (that I knew of)…
There is a song by the popular Christian music group Casting Crowns, entitled “While You Were Sleeping.” The song takes a different approach to the classic Christmas carol about the Little Town of Bethlehem – while the town of Bethlehem was going about its usual business (which they correlate with “sleeping”), Christ the savior was…
The last entry was pretty traumatic for a lot of people and perhaps as a result of reading this, they were re-traumatized to spiritual abuse in your own life. One dear friend who was not in Narrowgate reached out to my wife this past week and said that reading our experience re-traumatized her to some…